Everything has Changed

It has been 7 months since the first time I decided to work and live far from home in which my decision is somehow unpredictable for many people.

They said if I could survive here, life's gonna be easier. Living in a capital city is hard. This is, however, true.

Life is getting harder here compared to my previous life in many aspects, even from the time when I took my first step here. Traffic, pollution, culture, and now, this pandemic.

Everything is so new, so unpredictable.

How is it so new?

Previously, when I live in Semarang, I could get anything easily. Food was provided. I don't need to think about where to live. I don't need to worry I would get up late because my mom will wake me up. I don't need to think about the laundries. I also could ride my bike to my office for only 30 minutes and get paid for working.

The salary is only used for my own pleasure, like hanging out with friends, eating a lot of fancy meals, wandering around the city, buying cute stuffs, anything for my own pleasure.

But it is totally different here. I have to find a boarding house to live, not the expensive one of course because I also need to pay for it. I need to adapt to many kinds of transportation that is not exist in my previous city. I need to take a half up to one hour to go to office because of the traffic, and it gets longer when I go home. Two hours are spent only at public transportation on my way home which is tiring. I also need to find food, and wash my clothes as well. I need to take a good care of myself.

Then, this pandemic happened. Work from home and running online classes are now becoming habit. Salary decreased up to 30% , which is hard, for the life cost is still the same. No one expect this situation to happen. Neither do I.

Let's see what is waiting in front of us. I'm gonna stand still. I'm gonna let my self grow to its maximum potential that no one could bring me down.

Mom, can you see your tiny lil daughter grows?